Beautiful day in old San Juan

Just 2 days left of work and I am completely free. I have to admit that for the first time I have mixed feelings about it. I’m not going to see my friends every day. I know that we will see each other but not as much. Oh well…we will get used to it as we are slowly getting used to not seeing our Brother every day. His parents are visiting from Spain. So he is taking good care of them and seeing a lot of the island. The other day we all went to Old San Juan. We have a friend who used to work with us at school and now works at the San Cristobal fort. He gave us a tour of the fort  and later we went to El Morro and to eat mallorcas at La Bombonera. His parents are great and I think we all had a wonderful time.  They day was beautiful and some great pics were taken.As soon as they leave he will leave the school to go to the other in another town. Let’s see how all this go. Things are changing for the good for my friends. God is doing some work and we are seeing it. The weather here is extremely hot. It’s very difficult for me being at home. It’s like when you enter a sauna all day long. It doesn’t help being right below a fan. It really scares me what the next 2 months are going to bring.

Vivi in NY

Here are some pics of Vivi in NY. The others in the pictures are my niece and friend and my sister. There are many other good pictures but I took some of my favorites

Vivi’s birthday and some Freedom sightings

Vivi’s back fro New York just in time to celebrate her birthday with us. She just turned 20. She brought back great memories and beautiful pictures ( I will share some later) of her time with her cousins and aunt. They saw everything they wanted and more. They also bought a lot of things. For her birthday we had planned to go to Old San Juan, walk around and later eat at El Mojito. Some of Eugenio’s family joined us for dinner. We were there when the Carnival Freedom came. It was good to see my ship again. Love, love that ship. So many good memories of a perfect trip. When we there we saw Jaime coming in with her suitcases. I called her and Introduced myself. She is as beautiful and nice as everyone said. Wish I could see her work with John. They must be something together. We stayed for a little while waiting for the others to arrive and when we were there I saw someone that looked familiar come out of the ship. I told the others and they inmediately recognize him. It was Luis our assistant waiter on the Med cruise. We had a great time with him and Tina on our Med cruise. I have seen Tina again in our visit to the Freedom but we haven’t seen him since the cruise.We went to talk with him for a while and as we talk I think he might remembered the group seated on the second floor of the Posh at the very back. He was very nice with us and we spoke for a while. It was very good to see him. It was strange to see the ship and know that John was there and couldn’t see him. So close and so far. Finally we went to El Mojito and as always it was very good. Vivi had a great time with her cousins. To end the night while we were walking when It was almost 10:00 we saw a ship coming. Strange at that hour. It was a Disney ship. It seems there was someone sick and it just came for that. The ship looked beautiful and I had never hear the horn before. Have you heard it? Exciting! Love it JA!
Well I’m glad I live here…even though I can’t join my blogger friend in a cruise I have seen many just for being in a good location. So has some of you say Life is good.

Got pictures

Got pictures of me in a bar in Old San Juan JA!! No it’s nothing strange but for me it is. Believe me.. My friends were laughing because I had never been to a place like that. Nanette having social Friday’s? Never! at least not until now but it’s ok because Eugenio came alone with us. I’m living what I should have lived in my younger years. No I still don’t drink or smoke and I’m will never neglect my children or my husband but I can’t hide I’m enjoying it. Anyway we went to Old San Juan and walked all the way to El Morro at night. There we took great pics of us. Later we went to the bar. It was great because it was still early and it was just us. I’m at Mayaguez right now with my family. It just us and my sister with her family but today my aunt, the actress is coming to visit. In the afternoon we are going back to San Juan. Vivi is coming back home at 3:00 in the morning and I’m going to get her. They are having a great time even though it rained almost all the time. They loved Wicked and on Friday night while I was at the bar I received a message in the phone that read We are at the top of the Empire state. It’s amazing! That made me happy. Happy Father’s day to all!! Tomorrow is Vivi’s birthday and the Carnival Freedom is going to be here so the place to be is in Old San Juan.

and in New York…

The girls are having a grand time even though is colder than expected and rainy. Those things are not slowing them down at all. I know that they are out early and come back to the hotel between 9:00 and 10:00. They have walked and walked. My sister keeps updating her facebook on the phone so more or less I know what are they doing.
I can’t wait to see the pics. Meanwhile in Guaynabo, PR is extremely hot but so far it’s been fun. It has been different because I now have friends to go out.
Every excuse is good to do something and get together. Yesterday one of them have to get some earrings. So ok let’s go to Old San Juan. At first it was only the girls but not for long because as always the Brother meet us there. Then we went to Maria’s for frappees and nachos.We are going again tonight to walk and get some drinks(them). This time Eugenio is coming alone. He is working in a store, again a friend’s Music store. It not much but at least he earns something while he finds something better. So we been blessed in this hard times. Did I tell you I was serving as “travel agent” again? I helped Eugenio’s aunt and cousin with private excursions in Italy. They took 4 of them and for 12 people.
So I did good and is always a pleasure to talk with my friend Giovanni. Going to Mayaguez this weekend. I am taking advantage of the fact that Vivi is not here working and Eugenio is not fully working until July. Happy father’s day to all the father’s out there specially mine.

Vivi in New York

Everything good over here. The storm over the friends never materialize. I knew it. Many things are just in our minds. Today we all spent so time together at a Mc Cafe and then the ladies went to the mall. Today I’m going to spend it with my sister and my niece that are coming over because the girls are leaving today or more exactly tomorrow (in the wee hours). They are going to New York. Vivi, my niece and a friend of her. Their first time alone and they are very excited. Well they won’t be exactly alone, alone because my little sister ( the one who lives in Texas) is going to meet them there. They have it all planned out. Is not Vivi’s first time in New York. She has been there a couple of years ago with my parents. Loved the city and wanted to spend more time there. It’s my niece first time there but soon it is going to become her city because in August she is going to go study at Manhattanville.
So it’s a girls trip. Vivi pay it all with her work. On Saturday they are going to go and see Wicked. My brother who lives in Pennsylvania is going to bring my niece to New York for her to join their cousin in this. I can imagine that reunion. A lot of screams. JA! Well Vivi is coming back in time for her 20’s birthday on the 22. We are planning on going to Old San Juan to walk and have dinner. The Carnival Freedom is supposed to be there so we will go to see the ship come in and then maybe eat at El Mojito.

one of those days

Don’t you have days that you feel completely inadequate, stupid? This is one of those days. A day that you feel that you have been making a huge thing of something and it’s only that huge to your eyes and not  to the others. A day that you feel that you are really not so important and that people are avoiding you? I know it’s in my head and that those are not the feelings of the others but I really feel that way today. I feel that I have been thinking the wrong thing and that maybe I’m not that important to others as they are for me. I know that people may invite others to do things and they should be able to invite the people that they want and that they don’t have to invite everyone every time. They have the freedom to choose and that doesn’t have to bother me. I have always believe that and I practice it. The other day we were going to the park just 2 of us because we thought that the others were really tired and that they would not want to come. At the last minute we choose to mention it just in case. We wanted  her to know. She was mad (not really) telling us that we were not going to invite her which we did and she went. Ok.. I believe in the right to choose. But today I feel really bad because they went and made plans to go to the beach and they didn’t mention it to me. I know because one of them told me she has been invited. I really couldn’t go and they knew it but for me it would have been good just to tell me. Just tell me that is the only thing I ask. Don’t sneak out. If it would have been the other way around I would have been in trouble. That’s what’s bothering me. When someone does something like this makes you wonder if I’m that important to them as they are for me. That makes me feel stupid. Maybe I give too much. I feel stupid for another thing. I had a very serious conversation with one of them. I was trying to give advice so they won’t get hurt because I love them. I thought it went well but right the next day I realize they are falling for the same thing again….. I didn’t asked one question, maybe that was the only question I should have asked. The answer would have explain it all. Why continue to do the same thing? The thing that can hurt both? I have thought about it a lot. I should have made the question and there is only one answer and that is why things continue to be the way they are. That’s why I feel stupid….Helloooooooo Nanette ! You have it right in front of you…Maybe I am in la la land after all. I think about the conversation and it makes me feel stupid because It had no purpose at all if the answer to that question that I didn’t ask is what I think it is. Oh well I just want what is good for them. I love them. I don’t want them hurting again that’s all. People that deserve the sun. I still think that but they are not making the right choices. But why? Do I ask the question? I don’t want to burden them more…GOD please show me how I can help without making a mistake or just sticking my nose in none of my business. It makes you want to say I don’t care do what you want but it’s difficult.

Sorry I know you don’t understand but I can’t say more….but I just had to get it off my system.

Just let me write!!

beach, mall , just friends

Trying to enjoy myself even if Im working. Getting too attached to my friends. I had gone back to the teenager stage when your friends were so important that you spend as much time as possible with them. It’s not the same really because I have my family now I don’t want to take away time with them either so I’m trying to balance everything. It’s weird but it’s fun.We really miss each other if a couple of days go by and we don’t see each other. With the girls is easier because I see them at work. This week for example after work on Monday I went with one of them and her daughter to a park by the sea (Condado). Later my other friend arrived with her daughter and some time later the Brother also came. The girls ended up wet and we had a great time having some pizza after. On Tuesday the Brother didn’t have classes so we spent the morning at his office. That same day one of the girl and I with our children went to the mall the whole afternoon. Yesterday I didn’t went with them to one of my friend’s house because I had to go to the dermatologist with Vivi but the other 3 were there texting me while I was there. funny no ? Today was one of the girl’s birthday’s we started to celebrate from the early morning at school. Her husband prepared breakfast the way is used at her country that we ate at school. Later we also sang happy Birthday. In the afternoon we went to her house it was just us again. In the weekend I’m going to behave and stay home…… at least those are my plans

Makes me smile

This tree has been full with flowers the whole week. It’s just in front of the gate of my neighborhood. So I see it every time I go out or come home. It’s incredibly beautiful. The pic doesn’t do justice. Well … tomorrow it’s been 2 years since the Freedom Med cruise….

Opps I don’t know how to put the pic the right way…. sorry

UP and then down..

Yesterday I went to see the movie UP with Cristian. I’m glad he made me see it because it is wonderful. A masterpiece for this kind of movie. Everything was excellent in this movie. The best thing about it is the story. It makes you think about lots of things and it makes you sad.
Most of the movie I was teary eyed. It makes you think about your life and the things you want to do. It made me think again in the things I want to change but that right now I can’t. I want to find something to do that I’m passionate about. I’m stuck with the school right? Well I have to find something to do at the school, something different to get involved. Were I can help that makes me happy?  Now that I’m involved with the group that is in charge of the youth groups and pastoral for example What can I do there? I’m not like Monica, a leader that moves those teenagers but I see her that she likes that so much it’s her passion it doesn’t matter how many hours it takes. It moves her. I want that. But where ? My three friends are involved in this department. I am the only one that has nothing to do with it. Today we were joking on making the new Brother our friend so we could use our refuge. He is nice but not like the other. We told him that we were going to visit and that we were going to make brownies. Like a welcome thing. I told my friend that I was the only one not involved in the pastoral thing and she told me that maybe I could get involved. I would like to share that with them but I don’t know if I have what is needed. But it made me think that something like that or similar is what I need. Something to get involved that makes me happy. The movie made me think about the things that I like to do and I don’t do. Right now my new friendships make me very happy and to be sincere I’m very afraid to lose it. Afraid to go back at school like it was before all this. Afraid to lose them. I was the last one to arrived I have not gotten to the point were they are. Sometimes I still feel like an outsider. The bond between the 3 is so strong. I have not achived yet their status and the thing that one of them is not any longer at school makes it more difficult. I don’t want to impose. Their friendship makes me happy and I love to be with them. I’m a little afraid of getting too attach and lose what I have. I got to find another interest. The movie makes you think about life and what’s important. Go see it!! You are going to love it! Life is an adventure and i still want to live many more.